Wednesday, September 15, 2010

DAY 12

How you found out about blogger and why you made one...



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My good friend Arthur had suggested blogger... and I'm glad he did.

I started this blog so that my family and friends back home in the states could read about my adventures here in Taiwan.
This way they can keep tabs on what I'm doing... make sure I'm not starving... I'm going to school and doing my homework and all that shizzzz....


I would also like to dedicate this post and ALL the pictures taken (seen here and on facebook.com/goneandsaidit) to Arthur H. Love n miss you buddy! and BTW
Happy early Birthday!

Monday, September 13, 2010

DAY 11

Another picture of you and your friends...

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okay, okay, I know I cheated with this... but I had already made it prior and I really do ♥ ALL these folks x a million... for reals and not for fake ;)

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because she's special... Adriana gets her own picture.... yeah, try not to be jeals

Sunday, September 12, 2010

DAY 10

Songs you listen too when you're...


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Bands/Artists
Timbaland
OneRepublic

Dr. Dre
Justin Timberlake
Chris Brown & Kanye West (for the most part)
Songs
Stay Crunchy * Ronald Jenkees
Corona & Lime * Schwayze
Closer, First love * Goapele
Hot Pants * James Brown
有沒有
* 韋禮安
Burnin' Up * Jonas Brothers (and the drum cover by Cobus Potgieter)
Naturally * Selena Gomez
I Put A Spell On You * Screamin' Jay Hawkins
Just The Way You Are * Bruno Mars
In the Mood * Glenn Miller


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Songs
I Will Always Love You * Dolly Parton
Who Said It'll Be Alright * Stay Cool
You Can Let Go * Crystal Shawanda
Angel * Sarah McLaughlin
Sober * Kelly Clarkson
Up To The Mountain * Party Griffin
Turn Back the Hands of Time * R. Kelly
I'm Sorry * Brenda Lee
I Dare You to Move * Switchfoot


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Songs/Artists
Spoken Word *Adriel Luis
Katt Williams
Moulin Rouge Soundtrack
He's A Tramp * Peggy Lee (Lady & the Tramp movie sndtrk)
Tarzan Boy * Baltimore (Beverly Hills Ninja movie sndtrk)
Ford Mustang * Serge Gainsbourg Brigitte Bardot
Hungarian Rhapsody No. 2 * Franz Lizt


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Artists
Sean Paul
Dr. Dre
The Federation
Linkin Park
Songs
Empty Walls * Serj Tankian
Turn It Up * Stereos
Sink Into Me * Taking Back Sunday
The Middle, Sweetness * Jimmy Eat World
Burn It To the Ground * Nickelback
Closer To the Edge * 30 Seconds to Mars

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When I'm mad I listen to music to make me feel better... so I'm never mad for long... but if you must have SOMEone... I do listen to a couple till I feel better...
Bands/Artists
TRAPT
Nickelback
Linkin Park
Eminem
Kanye West

Saturday, September 11, 2010

DAY 9

Something you're proud of doing in the past few days....

I just finished my first week at MTC...

I've learned all of bo po mo fo
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Friday, September 10, 2010

DAY 8

Short term goals for this month and why...

I WAS going to say Make Friends... but I'm done talking about it... feeling bad about it... I'm so over the fact that I've no friends here [yet]... hahhaha x a million
Yesterday I had and a mild epiphany... PING!
I am so incredibly lucky to be here. I need to take advantage of my situation... and so my goal is to throw myself into my studies and do what I set out to do.



(Um for clarification: It's not that I didn't already know how lucky I am to be here but I think after writing the last post... and then letting that marinate for oh about 8 hours, I've realized, hot DAMN I'm lucky!!!)

Thursday, September 9, 2010

DAY 7

A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you... ((WARNING: time for Alicia to get deep... and thoughtful... and meaningful.... hahahha oh shiiiet)

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For those of you who don't know... I lost my brother in a car accident back in '99. Although it is not a picture of him above, it was he, who showed me the importance of time.

Time is not something you can ever get back; there is no rehearsal for life, no second take, no do overs, you've got one shot.

Often times people (myself included) forget how limited our time is here and unfortunately sometimes our time is cut short. I always have to remind myself to never waste my time. I can't sit by while I have things I need to be doing, people I want to see, or experiences I want to have.
I don't have to save the world everyday or even be that productive... I merely have to appreciate every second of my life for what it is... a gift.

The next time you spend a nice afternoon with someone, thank them and it doesn't have to be out loud (at least this is what I do, quietly in my heart, hoping that they might receive the message).
For the people who know me well... you know how I feel about time. I think that spending any amount of time on someone is the best gift you can give... period.

I thank everyone who has taken the time to keep up with my life... whether it be here on Blogger, Facebook, Skype, phone, even the passing thoughts you might have of me. I sincerely thank you.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

DAY 6

Favorite superhero and why...

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DO I REALLY NEED TO EXPLAIN??? Come on! How can Batman NOT be my fave... I love routing for any person that's just a regular Joe...

He's not some alien...
He didn't get bit by a super spider...
He doesn't have a power ring...
He doesn't have Greek God parents...

He's an average (albeit wealthy) guy that wants to do some good...

plus... his villainess' are straight vixens!

I guess you could also say that this guy below also applies... ♥
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I mildly entertained the idea of posting a picture of Sailor Moon on here... but she wasn't my fave....
Mars and Jupiter were! ;)

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

DAY 5

A picture of somewhere you've been too...

Stateside

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Georgia to see my Sissy ♥

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New York to see my sister ♥
This is actually a picture of The Dakota shot from just inside Central Park... the reason I love this hotel so much is because it was in one of my favorite books, Time and Again.

Global


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I spent 5 weeks doing community service. Our group worked in a tiny village called Agua Fria but we all lived in Penonome. (Cocle, Panama)

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I ♥ Canada... its abso-freakin-lutely GORGEOUS. I've been to both east and west coasts and I love it all. I can't wait to go back!

and seriously.. if you didn't know by NOW... this is my current location, beautiful Taiwan!
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Monday, September 6, 2010

DAY 4

Sorry for the TWO-fer... but I didn't even realize I had missed a day =P

A habit you wish you didn't have.

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I also tend to be very fidgety... but I think my FB addiction has gotten worse.

DAY 3

hahahah did I miss a day? oh wow... sorry guys...

Day 03- A picture of you and your friends


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i ♥ these guys... a LOT

Sunday, September 5, 2010

DAY 2

The meaning behind your username.


Well... I moved from the states to Taiwan... so it's more of a literal thing than a meaningful one =P

Saturday, September 4, 2010

DAY 1

A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

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  • I need coffee in my life... or I WiLL DiE... seriously
  • I have more body issues than I let on
  • Most times my mouth moves faster than my brain has time to tell it to SHUT UP
  • I can eat noodles everyday of my life
  • ♥ IMDB
  • I would literally die for my family and/or friends
  • Go Team Jacob!
  • still got my V pass... yup
  • Horrified to talk to boys
  • Music is my religion
  • I'm not a deep person
  • I hate it when people call me cute
  • I like to dance around my room when no ones home
  • Hate crying in front of people... but it turns out that I do it a lot
  • I love to read "Young Adult" books hahaha

the 30 Day Challenge

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your username
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

Friday, September 3, 2010

failing life's lessons, quarter life crisis, and school

Ellooo world!

Let me just say that even though the title may look like a precursor to a blog full of "wah's" and "poor me's" lemme just tell you now... it wont be. I mean shit... it happens to everyone... this time, my turn was up. That's just how it is.

So onto the bizzz....

Remember how I told you that I had a couple of job offers? Well what the situation ended up being me asking one (Hess) to wait list me till November and I turned down the other. With Hess I am wait listed but that does not guarantee me a spot in November. I had turned down the job at AGKsion because I did not feel prepare,d as a first time teacher, to teach at a school that does not provide a curriculum or teaching materials.

When I had told my uncle (he's pretty much the Boss) he told me I should have taken the offer, which I had turned down THAT morning.... kinda scared and not wanting to interrupt him he explained it to me like this:

"A single bird in your hand is worth more than a thousand in the forest."

What he meant is... the job was guaranteed and I should have accepted the position regardless if I was ready to take it on or not BECAUSE I don't know if I'll have a job with Hess in November.

After he had said all of this, my only thought was, "Oh shit, did I just fu@k shit up?"

There was NO way I was gonna call AGKsion and ask to be hired back after rejecting their offer. Ummmm especially since the lady coordinator person got HELLA mad when I turned it down.

life lesson grade: a big fat F

Even though taking the job is what I should have done... I don't regret turning down the position.


I was trying to talk to my dad a couple ofnights ago (not about my life crisis haha but ya know... just shootin the shit n whatnot) well anyway I couldn't help but to cry a little...
the realization that the situation is the same and its just the location that's changed just sank in all at once.

I love being in Taiwan. I will never regret making this move (does this mean I'm staying here forever??? I don't know... yet) but as stated previously... my situation hasn't changed just my location.

I'm going with the flow but I have absolutely NO DIRECTION.

I don't know what I want to do with my life. I have no career in mind which I think is the main problem. Without a clue of what I want to do, everything that I AM doing in the mean time is just kinda ... well I don't know what I would call it.

I think I know myself pretty well... if I have a direction, if I know what I want, I'll move forward, do what needs to be done so I can accomplish my goal. But for right now I'm in the dark without a light, or a match, or even a cell phone to light the way. I envy those who know what they want to do...

I guess anyone can say that I could be doing ANYTHING I want as long as I put my mind to it... but what exactly does that mean?

What I would want to do... is what I would want to do and I don't know what I want to do... so where exactly does that leave me???

For right now, I'm okay with just going to school... focusing on learning the language. I hope that some light is shed so that I might see a potential path that I could take into my future...


SCHOOL....

ahhh school... its a love/hate relationship... I love to learn... I hate the stress.

I didn't know that my school was going to take up SOOO much time... but it's okay since I'm not working ahahha.I have required class M-F for 2 hrs/day then MTC requires an additional 5 hours of a supplementary class (of my choosing) each week.

As one my supplementary classes I'm looking into taking Taiwanese (for those of you who aren't familiar with my country... Mandarin is the national language... thanks mainland China... but mostly everyone knows Taiwanese too. It sounds NOTHING like Mandarin/Cantonese... where those languages have 4 tones... Taiwanese has 8 I think) My TW Ama pretty much only speaks Taiwanese and I would love to be able to speak to both my TW Ama and my SF Ama.

In a way I think I'm doing this (learning Chinese I mean) in part so that I might finally be able to talk to my grandma. She's been in my life since DAY 1 and I have never been able to have an actual conversation with her. I feel like I've missed out on a very special relationship. I hope to rectify that soon... and on that day... I will most likely cry... hahahha

Well.. I don't know if there's anything else I need to update on... and again if you wanna know something... or if I'm leaving anything out... comment and I'll try and get up on it!

till the next post... ♥

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

the fear of being forgotten...

After talking to my friend Mabel, I think I've figured something out...

Ya know how I've been all sad face cuz I don't have any friends here? Well I've come to the conclusion that I'm being silly and that being so lonely here is only my temporary state of being and it will soon pass, of that I'm now sure.

I think the underlying problem I'm facing is FEAR (WOO-PAH!!! busted out that psychology shiz on yall, hella ninja, I know)

I'm afraid that too much time will pass with me not present in the lives of the people I love...
I'm afraid I'll be forgotten...
I'm afraid my place in peoples live will be replaced...
I'm afraid that I won't be thought of...

(I know, I know, "no envy and no fear" but its hard to be that way ALL the time...)

I have to laugh at myself because I know better... I know no matter what I say or how I feel about it things will and would have changed eventually with or without me there.

(And I don't want anyone to tell me it'll be the same when I get back, let's be honest here folks.)

As far as I know, I wont be home for at least a year...I will not be there for family get togethers, parties with friends, birthdays, holidays, etc. I mean my goodness my baby cousin will be 2ish before I see him again. He'll be walkin and baby talkin and have no clue who I am.

What I think might be worse is not the good times I'll be missing out on but the bad. For me I know its the people that stuck with me through the worst times in my life that are the closest
to me. I want to be there when there's a crisis in the family or lend a shoulder to a friend to cry on when somethings gone horribly wrong in their life. I mean shit, while I'm at it, I would like a hug from a friend if I'm having a craptastic day... (people here aren't really the hugging type).

I know that I really
have no control over this, it's just how I feel and please be kind... I don't usually own up to my fears nor do I let the whole world know that I like to feel needed. I should consider myself lucky now that almost everyone can connect via the internet... but the connection isn't the same...

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Now I've actually had a request (thank you properlyinpursuit) to give you guys a little taste of the what the folks here are like in Taiwan.


I know it's been pretty absent from my blog but weirdly enough... writing about people was the hardest part of Anthropology for me.
Everything else...
Observing was fine... if at times really boring.
Learning another culture... the most amazing gift ever.
Writing... ugh, bleh, and yuck.


As part of our jobs as Anthropologists is to immerse ourselves then to report a peoples culture. It just seemed wrong to me... scrutinizing and boiling it down into generalizations to make it simple so that it can be fit into a book... bleh... not really feelin it... AND THEN what happens is that its presented as objective science, free from opinion and judgements... and well that's just plain ol dumb to me...

To be an anthropologist you need a focus... that focus creates a skew in the vision in which you see your "subjects"... this skewed vision is then presented to viewers/readers like a one dimensional, vanilla, this-is-it representation of the people you study... and that is why Anthropology is SO frustrating...on one hand, no other field will allow you to totally immerse yourself in a culture and the chance to do that is SO rewarding and then on the other I end up feeling like shit when I have to write about it.

ugh... and that's how I feel about Anthropology... it's a love/hate relationship

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OK so most of the things I'm talking about are going to be pretty superficial... mostly outward appearance and public mannerism... I'll give you what I can. =]

  • Fashion reigns supreme here for the young folks.
    I have yet to figure out exactly how people put their fits together... I have noticed that its more or less focused on trends; like the shoes: gladiator sandals, or the accessories: fake glasses and necklaces with big blingy pendants, and for clothes: rompers and one pieces AND something similar to parachute pants. It seems like as long as you have all of those in your outfit AT THE SAME TIME- You've got it goin on!
    (PERSONAL OPINION::: everyone looks like they got dressed in the dark)
    :::(real life)EXAMPLE:::
    • camo cut off shorts
    • white and pink flannel button down
    • yellow and gray striped fitted tissue tee
    • white and black houndstooth bra
    • black, whit, red, and gray Azumo trainers
    (yuck, bleh and ugghhhhhhh)


  • You ever hear dress your age? Um. Yeah, doesn't apply here.
    Well I guess in their defense people just don't seem to age here.
  • Guys have murses/messenger bags here and they are also very comfortable holding their girlfriends purses here and/or their dog in those little carrying cases
  • Hair and accessories are important to both GIRLS and BOYS (equally so if I might add.)
  • Most girls sport colored contacts and false eyelashes.
  • I would say more than half dye or perm their hair (They have this interesting type of CRIMP perm/// but they only do the first 3-4 inches of hair starting at the root... this is to give the impression of volume without having to backcomb)
  • Paleness of skin and being thin are highly praised. Both are used as standards of beauty.
    (PERSONAL OPINION::: everyone seems to be on a diet and quietly refuses to go the gym... this is not all folk there are quite a few who are gym addicts too.)
  • CLEAVAGE is a BIG BIG NO NO... but show as much leg as you want.
    Yupppp.... Saw a lady with a dress so short I should see her underbutt cleavage. No one even batted an eye at her. I had a dress on that showed off the girls and my Auntie told me I was gonna get raped... true story.
    So fellas, if ya have a thing for stems... come on over!
  • (I know a lot of people are gonna be like GROSS but please keep in mind I'm only pointing out the obvious things you'd first notice if you came here from the U.S.)
    In public it is perfectly acceptable to do the following:
    • burp/fart
    • pick your nose
    • dig in your ear
    • take your shoes off in public
    • cough/sneeze without covering your mouth
    • they don't say anything when you sneeze
    • most folks do not shake hands as a greeting (A polite bow is acceptable and its equivalent)
    • when you address someone address the oldest first (although if you greet your acquaintance first that is also acceptable)
    • always accept business cards with both hand (and NEVER write on it)
    • do NOT touch/pat a child on their head... its bad juju



  • I cannot stress this enough... FAMILY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING TO TAIWANESE PEOPLE... they are very few, if anything, people would put ahead of their family. You must honor, respect, obey, and be loyal to your parents.
  • Taiwanese folks are the most kind and generous people you'll ever meet! They'll go out of their way to help you out.... I had a lady share her umbrella with me during a sudden downpour and she walked me to the door of the building. That girl was a SWEETie pie...
    Warning... (kinda funny too) those same people will not hesitate to push you or cut in line in front of you to get on a bus, train, or to pay for lunch... =D hahah don't make sense huh? yeah, I'm still working on figuring it out.
Well folks... as soon as I start talking to people I'll let you know whats up.... As far as why I don't think anyone HAS talked to me... I think it's a combination of fear and shyness.

Most young people have taken English classes since Jr. High school but aren't confident enough to talk to English speakers. Some English speakers forget to slow down so the kids can decipher the words. But when they forget to slow down it makes them all flustered and unwilling to talk.
The older people definitely have very little exposure to any sort of environment where they would use or learn English.


A lot of the food vendors are the on the older side. When I first moved into my place I'm sure they thought I was just another foreigner that was passing through or probably one that got lost. Eventually they got used to seeing me; smiling and even waving when I would leave or come home and trying to help a sistah out when shes trying to eat...

As far as my learning Chinese??? I think the words are all settling themselves in my brain... I understand more and more everyday... but with no one to practice with, speaking is definitely going to be my hardest challenge (oh and I will not even talk about being literate... oh boy!)

Until next time... 加油!!!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

bajeeebus yall...

Damn I'm hella glad no one else attended that pity party for me on the last entry... I wont delete it though.

I really don't have it so bad... I'm just not used to being out of my element. Even though I was only working at a restaurant back home I didn't feel so listless. Here, I feel kinda like plankton. Yup plankton... look it up... it basically means floater/drifter. Truthfully, I've never not had a direction. That was up until graduation... Maybe its not Taiwan that's making me feel this way. Maybe I've felt this way and Taiwan just shook me awake.

The suckosity that is our recession in the states have left new graduates such as myself with very little hope of, well that's just it... it's left us with very little hope...So what did I do? hahahahah I bought a one way ticket to Taiwan... and of all the things I've learned the most important is that with or without you life goes on... so you better get a move on.

Its easy to forget that I'm living my adventure when I'm so stressed out but no more... I declare that the end.

I'm looking forward to my interview tomorrow and I'm pretty sure I still have to head up to Badu for dinner with Ama. It's supposedly Chinese Valentine's day??? Idk I'm not with any body so my uncle told me to go eat with Ama ahahahhaha.

I sent out a bunch of emails with my resume the past couple of days so hopefully now that the weekend is over I might get some responses.

hmmm anything else??? have I told you about the 7-Eleven's here??? OH EM GEE ahahahah you can LIVE (and I do mean that literally) out of a 7... You can pay your phone bill or parking tickets or EVEN YOUR TAXES at 7-Eleven! They have REAL food and they'll heat it up for you n everything... Iono if everyone knows or like Sarsaparilla but folks love it here and they even have it in Slush-e form... yeah... yummmo.

Everyone in my neighborhood is getting used to seeing me around. The vendors down the street have been more willing to help me out. I found this delicious noodle house (it's SUPPOSE to be pho but yeah, NO) its still good... it reminds me of my fave noodle soup at Champa Garden (mmm hmmm Arthur you know what I'm talking bout). The folks who work at Coco (its like Tap Ex/Quickly) already know what I like. hahaha oh boy.

[Ummm completely unrelated to Goneandsaidit biznassss- Rita! pay attention ok sister?! I was thinking of doing some basic hair/makeup/product tutorials via YouTube... This way you can rewind and watch how I do my face n whatnot and I wont get all frustrated trying to teach ya. hahahhahah jk jk no but seriously... its just a thought... if you want me to do it just email me kthx]


I feel like I haven't really been reporting on things like I should but I don't really know what any of you would like for me to talk about... so comment. AND DON'T FORGET pictures and videos and random updates will be on facebook.com/goneandsaidit

Saturday, August 14, 2010

i think so... or maybe thats it

Not to get on a whole psychology trip... but I think I'm suppressing all my stress...


And how would I know that?

  • Well the last time my hair fell out at THIS rate... I was taking 22 units/qtr, working 17 hrs, commuting for 2, and oh yeah Dad was in the hospital...

  • I've had both dreams and nightmares EVERY night... have yet to have a restful nights sleep

  • um not to mention that often times takes it around 2 hours to even fall asleep...

    and the worst of it all???

  • I don't even really have a desire to leave my room... I've spent a couple of days where I didn't even leave my house... OK so part of THAT is because of the heat and me being allergic to it and all (if you don't believe that I'm allergic to the heat... go ask my dermatologist.)
Seriously guys... I could be mildly going nuts over here... maybe that's it. And don't tell me that I'm homesick... I've never been homesick in MY LiFE... no seriously... I haven't.

Maybe its just me not used to being lonely. I've never had a problem calling someone up and making plans to do something and here? I'm living in Lonerville population ME... and we all know I don't normally have a problem making friends... but people here are literally scared to talk to me. So this is new territory for me.. and maybe that's it.


wooo sahhhh.... and moving on...



SO kinda late but I GOT INTO MTC! yay me =) Registration is at the end of this month, orientation is Sept. 3 and classes start on the 6th. I'm really excited about school... and everyone says that I'm sure to make friends there but my apprehension about making friends at MTC is that some of these kids are gonna be here for a year or less. =/

I'm kinda banking on MTC to really get me started with my Chinese... I think I keep retarding my learning by listening to American music every second of my life... but ya know the music scene here aint all that hot... (opinion yall... don't get all butt hurt)...

well I partially take that back, my cousins band Staycool (www.staycoolmusic.com) is pretty awesome..
. they've got a indie folk pop kinda feel...easy listening... its like your favorite sweater on cold rainy day
(which btw does not exist here... its hot when it rains and its hot when it doesn't... good thing about it??? wet feet aint so bad hahahaha)


anywho... I digress... back to the matter at hand... I guess there is no "matter" but whatev

Since I've been hiding out in my room that means I've been taking a break from exploring the city. I do know my basics though... I know how to get to Auntie Amy's/Uncle Vincent's (same bus stop), I know how to get to Badu (Ama's house) and Keelung, I know how to get to my school, I know how to get to Taipei 101 and the Eslite bookstore, I know how to get to Ikea, I know how to get to my banks... and pretty much anywhere near an MRT (subway/metro
) station.

Tomorrow I will try to finish sending off my resumes to jobs and then get my patootie out of the house... maybe a nice MRT ride up to Danshui, maybe take a walk over to the library, or head over to Ximen (it's suppose to be the fashion district over here)...

but first I'd have to go to sleep... its already a quarter to 2 and I'm not even tired ... le sigh

good morning......

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

im sorry im sorry i sorry.... sad face... lip pout

I know... I suck... Hahah Sometimes I wonder if anyone out there is really reading my blog... and then I get random reminder from someone that I'm slacking on my blogosity...

I apologize once again for the lengthy lapse in time between this blog and the last... soooo I will now dedicate this blog to Ducky who's been so kind as to remind me of my blogging duties
(p.s. Ducky... check the public fanpage facebook.com/goneandsaidit for pictures and whatnot)

Where did I leave off?! OH yes... school and teaching, oh joy. =]

So I've officially register for the Mandarin Training Center (MTC) but I'm still waiting to hear back from them. That means that I'm not technically accepted yet... yup waiting sucks.

If I get accepted school will start the first of September. If I feel like I'm learning a lot then I just might continue with school. (I think they even have some masters programs like translating or teaching Mandarin... you never know, I'm keeping my options and my eyes open for potential jobs/careers)

As far as jobs go I'm putting my resume out there and see what's biting. My moms been very understanding. She says not to worry, finding a job takes time and if I don't get a job right away its okay. I COULDN'T HAVE DONE ANY OF THIS WITHOUT HER, THANKS MOM! She thinks I might be better prepared for a job once I've gone through a quarter at MTC.
The one hiccup with holding off on getting a job is my Board of Directors. HAHA my cousins have already bet that I'd be making at least 60,000 NT in a couple months of working.

OH have I mentioned my complete LACK of breakdown when my mom and sister left? NOPE? Well let me tell you.... there were no tears when I saw them off. I totally thought I was going to ball my peepers out on the walk back to my place. I felt okay. I knew that I was as prepared as I could be, I have wonderful people here to help me out and I had and overwhelming sense that everything would be alright.


Yeah I didn't even cry until I got Melanie Knight on the phone two days later. She had the BEST reaction when i got her on the phone. OH MY GOD ITS ALICIA KEYS ON THE PHONE, ITS ALICIA KEEEEEEEYS, do you NOT UNDERSTAND??? ITS ALICIA KEEEEYYSSSSS... is what finally brought tears to my eyes... I know she misses me and I cried because I miss her too.

I also talked to Cathy for like AN HOUR... and even though I've been gone for a little over a month, I'm an ocean away AND 13 hours ahead of California, talking to Cathy is like I've never left... shes the light of my life... hahhahaah my little piece of Alameda.

Um Grace I'm gonna need you to get your shit together woman... pick up your phone >:I

With Skype I was also able to get my family on video chat... the internet connection was kinda crap but it was good to see everyone... pixelated or not. hahah It probably didn't help that EVERYONE was talking at once.

I miss EVERYONE... I've been attempting to get people on the phone one by by so please be patient... and everyone should get SKYPE. I have a subscription to call landlines and cell phones but Skype to Skype is free. And we all know that free is goooood ;) espcially when you're unemployed hahahahhaha x a million.

I want everyone to know that I'm okay. I'm still getting a handle on things out here.I'm enjoying things here immensely. I hope that everyone is doing well. I miss and love you ALL.

♥ ♥ ♥

Sunday, July 18, 2010

aaacccck..... life!

MY BAAAAAAAAAAAD I meant to write sooner but I've been kept super busy by well... life. We just went to Jinshan (Gold Mt.) to visit with my moms college classmates. It was great! One of them had built his "retirement" house up there and has direct access to a hot spring and has it piped to his house!!! We ended up spending the night up there but are now back in BaDu.

At the moment we're trying to line my ducks up in a row... things aren't set in stone and that's making me a little anxious but what can I do, ya know?

Here's the situation right now...

I got my Letter of Clearance authenticated by the SF Taiwan Consulate =) yay... My blood work came back from the hospital and I'm missing some shots (something weird like German measles or something) which I got yesterday. =) Today I pick up the medical clearance.

We dropped off my papers at the immigration office and I should get a call in about a week stating whether or not I've been approved for residency. Once its approved I begin my mandatory 365 days in Taiwan. Once I finish the calendar year I submit my papers for citizenship. =)

As far as housing goes I'll be living with a woman who's a relative of my mom's best friend (complicated huh?). Well the place is pretty cool. I get my own room and bathroom, and the living room and kitchen are shared spaces. The neighborhood is supposed to be one of the most coveted places to stay at. It's centrally located, its near all the night hot spots (where those are, I have no idea), there are a lot of buses, and its pretty close to my Uncle Vincent and Auntie Amy's offices. Tomorrow I sign a 4 month contract!


Letseeeee exactly what will I be doin???.....
It seems like the only thing to do for people in my position is to teach [English] or to be taught [Mandarin].... apparently I'm doing both.

uggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh... we all know that I don't really want to do either... but I can't make it here without money and I can't get any other job without speaking Chinese... so what else is there for me to do while I'm learning the language.
I'm currently filling out my application for Hess which is an English learning center for kids that range from elementary to Jr.
High So I need to get my resume together for that.

I'm also trying to get into the Mandarin Training Center National Taiwan Normal University...(long ass name huh???).... well apparently its rated as one of the top 5 universities in Taiwan to study Mandarin.


As far as how I've been feeling??? Nervous and anxious and anticipating a complete break down once my mom and sister leave.
I came here to find out exactly what I want to do, while in the process get to know the language and my family over here. The other day my mom and I went to my Uncle Vincents. When I sat down in his office with no reservation or hesitation he had asked me what I wanted to do while I was here and where will I be in three years. I have no idea.
My Uncle Vincent can be pretty intimidating and its not that he's scary or anything but he has such a strong sense of self, such a clear of vision of what he's here to do that it kinda makes me feel so unprepared for life.

You know how companies have board of directors??? Well I've got my own: Uncle Vincent and his wife, cousins Soo Ching and Soo Young, Uncle Henry and his wife, and my Auntie Amy... (there a lot of other people here to help me out and I'm so grateful to have all these people in my life.)

My board of directors have helped me decide what my first step should be: as it stands I will be going to school and teaching English and though they don't top my list of things to do I know its whats best


I am so grateful and overwhelmed by my family's generosity, it just amazes me everyday.

Once I get settled and my mom and Rita leave I'm suppose to check in with one of my family members once a week. I think they want to check on my progress and make sure I'm not starving or any thing. On the weekends I'm suppose to make my way back out to BaDu to have dinner with my Great Aunt. =)

Yay! things are coming together and even though I'm scared about my mom leaving me I'm really excited...and I think I'm ready to rise to the occasion... and meet my future.

thanks for reading ♥

Monday, July 12, 2010

so so SO SORRY =X

A THOUSAND AND ONE APOLOGIES FOLKS… I am so so SO sorry about the incommunicado-ness.


MY AWESOME COUSIN JASON came to see me off at the airport... I think the appropriate reaction would be tears of happiness but i was taken so off guard I didn't have time to cry. I really appreciate the the send off. =)

We’re staying at my Uncle Vincent’s (who I’m eternally grateful to for allowing my mom, my sister, and I to use his home as my base of operations while I’m getting set up here in Taipei but since no ones lived here in the last 10 months they’ve BEEN had the WIFI cut. Totally understandable… but I’m truly sorry about not keeping up with the blog and FB. If I wanted to get online I’d have to bug my cousins down the hall. (Yup my Aunt, Uncle Vincent’s sister, and her two girls are my neighbors!)

It’s all been such a whirlwind since I’ve landed. I really feel like I’ve fallen through the rabbit hole and I’ve come up somewhere in Taiwanderland. It’s so fantastically different; I just know that it will definitely hold my attention for quite a while.

I miss home immensely… well maybe not “home” but the people who make it feel like home. I want to thank my wonderful friends who made my last two weeks at home some of the best times I’ve ever had!

I miss my dad and hope he’s doing ok. Which reminds me… will someone make sure he’s feeding himself something other than KFC?

Btw… Mel, Grace, Trish, and Arthur I forgot to get your mailing addresses before I left =O please email/facebook it to me… ANYONE ELSE WHO WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE SNAIL MAIL FROM TAIWAN PLEASE EMAIL ME YOUR MAILING ADDRESSES AT goneandsaidit@gmail.com!

WARNING: This post will be long… I’ll try n break it down to the highlights… and I really appreciate yall for reading. ily

Let me try and go through a quick run down of my daily…

The regular routine goes something like this:

  • 6:00 Wake up (If anyone is wondering how I do it… blame the heat and yes it is hotter than satans balls out here, um, and yes I did just say that.)
  • 6:30/7:00 ish I go across the hall to eat breakfast with my Auntie
  • 8:14 Catch the train either into Taipei (South) or Keelung (North)
  • proceed to do X, Y, and Z
  • and usually head to my Great Aunt’s (Who be-tee-dub lives down the street.) for dinner.
  • I take a COLD SHOWER
  • Then if its after 10p I’m usually knocked the eff out… waking up at 6 ain’t easy yall. And trust me I’ve tried to sleep in but with this heat its damn near impossible.

My aunt and her 2 girls live down the hall and my great aunt is half a block away so I’m thoroughly enjoying the fact that my family is in close proximity to me. It makes me feel a whole lot more secure than if I was out in the city all alone.

Day 1 (6/29)

  • We were able to open up a bank account =)
  • Had a delicious sushi lunch… at I♥Sushi, a sushi chain out here, its kinda like Sushi Boat but conveyor belt style ;) They had this weird corn/mayo nigiri and an oshinko appetizer which included shredded tamago. It was good but nothing can touch Sushi House. I miss me some spicy scallop. Le sigh
  • Dinner at my Great Aunties (shes uber cute, she does NOT believe in Vegetarianism, she’s loud and out there and yes I ALREADY love her!)


For my first day it wasn’t too bad. Everything was moving along and I was too hot to notice how tired I really was. Going through the day with my mom, Rita and my family here made me feel very optimistic about being in Taiwan.

Day 2 (6/30)

  • Head into Taipei to really quickly visit my Auntie Amy
  • We head over to see my Uncle Vincent and have lunch with him, his completely adorable wife, his son and newly wedded wife, and the younger son. Then all of us head down the street for a little lunch… it was DELICIOUS… ALL 12 COURSES… oh em gee yall I didn’t know that there was gonna be that much food. It just kept coming and coming and coming and coming… for dessert they had these delicious mini Taro ice cream bites yummmo
  • From lunch we went to the Taiwan Museum of Modern Art to go see the Jean-Paul Gautier exhibit. (If you don’t know who he is, he’s the guy who designed Madonna’s cone bra. Big in the haute couture world.) It was um definitely interesting.
  • Dinner at my Great Aunties

Day 3 (7/1)

  • Trek through Taipei and hop a bus across the river to head to my great Uncles place to hang out for a bit and eat some lunch ;)

    um yes I know that every entry has me eating out and yes I always say its delicious because it is… wish you could join!

  • Later that night we made our first trip to the Keelung NIGHT MARKET ugghhhh eff yeah man! We ate bomb ass noodle soup and had “ice” ice cream… PAO PAO BING… I got peanut and condensed milk, YUMMY, if you could… you’d see me throwing up the peace sign asian style.

Day 4 (7/2)

  • First thing in the morning we head out to the Immigration Office in Keelung. They told me I was missing paperwork... UMMMM...If I were missing paper work that would mean that I’d have to come home to complete it. … YUP I NEARLY LOST MY SHIT man…

    Let me just stop and say that I’m not coming home (not that I don’t want to but not this soon) and besides I don’t even have the money to come home.

    Well apparently all I was missing was a stupid sticker on my Letter of Clearance (its just an official piece of paper from Alameda County that says I’ve never been arrested). The sticker is there to authenticate the document: so the Taiwanese government doesn't think I just printed it out at home.
  • Next we head to the office of Foreign Affairs in Taipei to see if we can authenticate it there but it turns out we have to do it at the Consulate in San Francisco. *forehead/hand*

    Ugh seriously?! So exactly how are we going to do that???… well we had to wait till midnight to wait for the Consulate in SF to open so we could call… pshhhhh

It was only the 3rd day of my stay and the whole ordeal with the paperwork and traveling back and forth really brought me down. So on the way back to the train station my mom and I stopped into a bookstore. The thing about bookstores that I love the most is the smell of books (and definitely one of the reasons I don’t have a Kindle/Reader because I appreciate the physical-ness of the books I’m reading). Well for the most part I think bookstores smell the same and as soon as I walked into the store all the books immediately comforted me. Well my comfort was short lived…there wasn’t a book in the store that was written in English. It was just the first of many reminders of how big of a challenge my life here is going to be.

Day 4 (7/3)

  • Had traditional Soy Bean Milk and Donuts for breakfast in Taipei.
  • Took the longest nap of my life
  • Diner at my Great Aunties

It was exactly what I needed… REST

Day 5 (7/4)

  • Breakfast with my Auntie and her two daughters (the younger one is Rita’s age and the older one is 29.)
  • We headed over a couple blocks to the local market to do some shopping for veggies n whatnot.
  • Even though we had just eaten before shopping we ate again and after that we had SHAVED ICE! Mm mmm mmm… you get to choose 4 toppings and 3 out 4 of mine were some sort of tapioca and the last was almond jello. =D

    Seriously a delicious day and it was only 1 in the afternoon by the time we were finished with the shaved ice.

  • My mom and I came back to the apartment to relax for a bit and we decided it was cooling off and we didn’t want to stay inside so we headed into Taipei to go to Taipei 101 (the second tallest building in the world.)

It was a food filled day so you don’t even have to ask if I enjoyed myself. ;) Our excursion to 101 was a lot of fun… the bottom 5 floors are the “mall area” (all the stores aren’t really my type of stores… Louis Vuitton, Coach, Chanel, high end shiz… not really my stylo) but it was nice to walk through the air conditioned mall and have dinner with my mom in the food court… I think once Chris gets here we’ll have to take a trip up to the top! PS I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT 4th!

Day 6 (6/5)

  • We went to the post office in Keelung to get a mail order travelers check thingy and in an epic failure my mom forgot her ID. Yeah folks she really shoulda brought it. We needed it to make sure I could “express” my letter of clearance to the SF consulate office so I can get it authenticated. *forehead/hand*
  • I really needed a pick me up so my uncle graciously treated us all to the Wasabi BUFFET in 101… oh boy was it delicious =) ommmm nom nom nom
  • Right after we took a 3 minute walk to the TECH Expo where I bought a computer!!!! Yippy skippy yall I was so happy that I got a new computer =)
  • What is it that one needs after a long day? Yuuuuuppp…. FOOD hahahah I’ve been eating so much here I’m surprised I don’t look like the good year blimp. But I don’t feel too bad since I’ve been eating loads of fruits and veggies and very little to almost no processed food.

Ok I know it seems like all I’m doing it eating… and that’s partially true but it doesn’t really matter cuz I’m having fun hanging out with my family… and we’re not even done seeing everyone yet.

Day 7 (6/6)

  • Went to the clinic in Ba Du to register myself and get an ID # and an appointment. (I need to get a medical clearance as part of my paperwork for my residency)
  • We took a needless trip to Taipei (don’t ask… it was pointless and not worth space on my blog to explain it fully)
  • Met up with my Auntie and “Little” Auntie who took us to an old gold mining town... it was really cool but I was totally miserable in TRIPLE DIGIT heat and like 100% humidity… I was kinda sorta really grumpy =/

Ok, I knew it was going to be hot when I moved here but HOT DOG… if I wasn’t wearing shoes the ground woulda cooked my feet well done. =( I knew the day was going to be hot and the news advised everyone to stay inside between the hours of 10 and 2 but of course we hauled ass all over the city. So yeah I was cranky and I was wrong for giving attitude about it.

Day 8 (6/7)

Well I haven’t mention before but apparently I’m allergic to the heat and broke out in a rash… but it only on the tops of my hands… Then I had this funky thing happen to my pinky finger… it was swollen and achey

  • My auntie took me to the dermatological clinic in Keelung to see if he could assess what could be done about my heat rash and my pinky. Well he prescribed a cream for the heat rash and some pill for my pinky (apparently I had a dormant viral infection that causes limbs and digits to swell and ache… hmmm go figure)

    I’m all better now… rash gone… pinky back to regular pinky size ;)

  • My Uncle Henry dropped off my computer!!!! I was so excited and happy. Then he took us shopping for some supplies at A Mart and COSTCO… I was so excited to be in Costco. They had samples and everything
    It was all asian food and it was goooood… and they had a food court
    YES they had pizza BUT they had 3 choices… SEAFOOD, PEKING DUCK, and hawaiin
    YES they had hot dogs BUT it was only pork and the buns weren’t the same
    YES they had chicken bakes BUT they also had a Korean style bulgogi bake too
    NO churros but they did have bacon cheeseburgers
  • We heed back to Keelung to try n get my wireless thingy set up. So I purchased a wireless plan and a permanent phone number…

    Some of you won’t like this but I’m tell you anyway… the contract is for 3 years.

    Well the wireless plan comes with an iPod Touch… so ARTHUR I’ll be supporting RUN! And Pet Play Pen =)… the Wireless here is so convenient. I can carry it around with me so I can use my iPod wherever.
    HAHAHA well we purchased the plan but since they were doing inventory they didn’t have any available for me to take home so I had to come back in 2 days to pick it up.

I’m really excited about my computer!

Day 9 (7/8)

  • Had my doctor’s appointment at the hospital to get blood drawn and x-rayed… they also wanted a stool sample… yeah… my eyes looked like this… @_@... but they saw that I was from the states so they waived it… wheeeew. Well any who… getting blood drawn doesn’t really bug me… it was the x-rays that made me laugh. They needed to check my lungs so I only got my torso done. I guess the techs here are used to someone who’s got boobs and he hella pushed me into the machine… yeah..it kinda hurt hahaha
  • We head into the city for a delicious DIM SUM dinner… I love breakfast dinner. I finally got to see and hang out with my Auntie Cecilia, Auntie Amy and her 2 kids (Mary is SO cute and Peter is super sweet, I probably haven’t seen them in like 10 years) and Auntie Kay and her husband Uncle Shoo

Day 10 (7/9)

  • Hang around the house… had Honey Bunches of Oates for breakfast.
  • Head into Taipei to go look at a room for rent… (um, definitely wasn’t really a situation I was comfortable with)
  • We tried to find our way to the Language Center (it's the most prestigious place to learn Mandarin) but we got lost and ended up taxing over there. I finally found where all the other foreigners were!

    It was weird hearing English, Russian, Spanish, Portuguese but it made me feel kinda weird and out of place. These people will come here to learn Mandarin and leave, but me? I’m living here, I have papers and I don’t even know the language of my country… le sigh…
  • My sister heads to Keelung while my mom and I stop by the house to pick up my computer and meet me sister in Keelung so we can set up my wireless. It took FOREVER I mean like HOURS! But we finally got it.

I can tell that my impending living situation is starting to stress my mom out. She’s really concerned about my safety and is really afraid I’ll get taken advantage of in my transitioning state of acclimation.

Day 11 (7/10)

o The internet failed me… it stopped working and now I’m sad

o Headed to Tao Yuan to my Uncle Henry’s place. After he picked us up from the train station we headed over to a local BAKERY… we picked some stuff out for our breakfast the next day then headed back to his house and hung out before we went for a dinner of traditional Taiwanese food… yummo

o When we finally got the internet working we found out my sisters boyfriend missed his flight to Taiwan because his flight from GA was delayed =(… so we had to stay an extra night...which btw was the only reason we bugged our uncle to let us stay with him and asked him to help pick up my sisters bf... ugh epic fail.

Day 12 (7/11)

  • The next day we ate the yummo buns from the bakery for breakfast and headed to A Mart (its like Taiwan’s version of a Walmart) after that we took a lovely trip to the Ceramics Museum wooot woot… didn’t know ceramics were that interesting but they ARE … =) true story
  • Head back to my uncles to chill out, relax, and wait for my cousin Stanley to come home so we can go eat noooooodles =)

YO sooo my cousin Stan’s actually in this really cool indie pop folk band thing… and before you lump his band STAY COOL into shit you’ll never listen to… you just have to give it a try… cuz I said so…. kthx


ok folks sooo I think I've got you ALLLLLLLL caught up. So now everyones here.... I need to give my eyeballs and fingers a rest. I do need to followup with the "follow through" plan... and I swear on my OWN LIFE... it won't take as long for another post....

I appreciate your time and your patience.... especially your patience

ily

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