PLAY ME
I'm really trying to write more often. But this time around I really don't have nothing [new] to say. I've enjoyed my couple of days off and happily spent them sleeping and eating and eating and sleeping with an occasional shopping sprinkled in but not too much just the necessities... like that sudden downpour forced me to buy a new pair of cute black boots. Hey, don't give me that look I seriously didn't know it was goin to rain, there's no way my feet would have stayed dry and my fave faux suede moccasins definitely would have been completely ruined.
Stop looking at me like that! =]
Let's seeeeeeeeeeeee
oooOOOoooo I can tell yall that I'm learning to fall asleep to music... le sigh... however....as always there's a big fat 'but'
I like big butts n I cannot lie you otha brothas can't deny, when a girl walks in wit an itty bitty waist n a round thing in yo face you get SPRUNG!
I digress...
buuuuuuuuttttttt (told ya it was a big butt ;] ) ok ok... I'm just tryin to work y'all up cuz what I'm about to say will make you feel like you stuffed your face full of Warheads (the candy not like real ones... ok so maybe I'm being a lil over dramatic, but its kinda a revelation... at least to me)
Using music to help me sleep... causes dreamlessness. *gasp* I knooooooooooow right?!?! how horrid is that? (1point and a woot for using the word horrid, woot!) as nonsensical as my dreams get and as fast as I forget them in the AM I still enjoy being in the state of dreamsville; coasting down the highway in a fire engine red 65 Mustang with Tupac riding shot gun, where the clouds are made of cotton candy, talking flowers are completely normal, and no one even bats an eye at my pet sloth, 'Speedy,' with his blinin rhinestoned collar and the best part in my dreams... stupidity doesn't exist and I can fly.
(and yes I've dreamt of having a pet sloth cuz in real life I really do want a 3 toed sloth. They're kinda like pugs, so hideous they're kinda cute, no???)
OH I know I know... I can tell you about my first day of the new quarter... brace yourself... its not at all happy... in fact I should probably invest in a "Dunce" cap...
emoticon progression
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The entire class I sat there and the soundtrack in my head went like this... "UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
What's another word for frustrated? cause that's what I am. I know I'm lucky that I can understand what's being said to me but le sigh what's the point of saying it again...
SO even though I probably could struggle though this quarter I really don't want to feel like how I did last quarter. So I'm actually quite content with my choice to repeat the quarter...
The down side to all of this is: I don't know how to tell my TW family. I'm sure out of politeness they wont say a thing (firm believers in 'if you don't have anything nice to say...')
At the last 2 family gatherings my family has asked how my classes were going with expecting eyes... it left me speechless... because that's just what I am.
So that was what? a month ago? I still haven't been able to face them... I feel like I'm back in kindergarten and I'm getting sent home with a note pinned to my shirt and it's the dreadful feeling of knowing I will eventually have to go home and face the music. I know choosing to repeat the quarter is for the best but one of the things I hate the most in this world is disappointing people, especially my family. For all they've done for me...
the least I can do is learn Chinese.
Don't worry about what other people feel and think. You have done your best. That is justified. Your family is at easy only if you are not stresses. No one set the formula how the life should play out. That is why life is exciting. You will never know what comes next. A year ago, you would not have thought about you would be at Taiwanland. Have you? See? You maybe in Europe next year this time. Or you may be in Mongolia. Life is unpredictable, we human being like to live more or less knowing what is going to be next. That is why we have check off list. I would like to live my life like river if I were still young and single. Hahaha, it is always easies to say than to do. Now I am living my life one minute at time. In the way I live my life like a river. I only wish I am the Yangzy river not the Yellow river.
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